date; 20050410

ive never wanted anything so much and im so nervous i feel like throwing up;
i just need to get thru this week.
i feel so scared and excited and everything at the same time.
; i dont want it to come but i want it to be over with at the same time.
honestly i'll need prayers and stuff.
its in a days time and yet i feel like -THIS- nervous.
how am i gonna feel tomorrow??







i know ive screwed everything up. will i always regret doing this to us. im relli sorry.

drops of jupiter;